Oh, good Lord. Did He really just say that?
(Yes, He DID. I can’t EVEN.)
He can’t possibly be talking to me.
(Spoiler Alert: Yep. He IS.)
Because I’ve foolishly been thinking it’s all about me and my big ideas. (*Ahem*)
Because, you see, without big ideas, I can’t make a plan to execute. (*Sigh*)
I’m a person who loves to execute plans. Like, LOVES to. It’s hard for me to “stop”. Do you know what I mean? I like BIG ideas, BOLD plans, and BEAUTIFUL executions of them! And God has been SO, SO good in blessing me with a great season of DOING all these things!
But the fact that He and I don’t seem to be “doing” anything like that in my life right now has me like:
(Did you just do the Scooby Doo “huhhhhh?” voice in your head?! Me too! Me too!)
I’m the girl (and maybe you are, too?) who likes to immediately take matters into my own hands when I don’t think I’m getting my way. So, in the absence of visions and plans coming my way, I have been a bit busy to try to kick start the process. And every time I come up with a brilliant idea, it energizes me for about a day or two.
THEN it’s like the fire under the boiling “BIG IDEA” pot gets turned down to a low simmer and moved to the back burner, clearing lots of space once again on a big ol’ empty stove.
Every. Single. Front. Burner.
Like God is saying, “Well. That looks delicious and all. But let’s save it for another time, okay? No need to be cooking up a storm right now. I’ve got reservations for us elsewhere.”
Kind of like a frying pan to the face – in a really good Godly way, I mean. 😉
God isn’t looking for me to DO anything right now except be obedient to the “season of rest” to which He called me last fall.
Unfortunately, I haven’t been so great at being restful. I love-love-love being an ACTION VERB kind of girl – a doer, a creator, a teacher, a writer, a speaker. But instead, I think I need to learn how to be a BEING VERB kind of girl (as in – be still, be quiet, be kind, be with others, be with myself, be with GOD…).
I need to pipe down, already.
And I need to be o-BE-dient.
As I let that verse right there weave together with the original message I got from God, a more gentle wording came out:
Will you please just be with Me for a bit instead of trying to DO things I haven’t even asked of you yet? How about we start by taking care of you and your own four walls (literally and figuratively)? I’ll be right with you every step of the way, but – for the moment – you need to STOP IT with all this other stuff. It’s going to be worth it, trust Me.
And since you are wondering, YES – I see you. I hear you. I know you. I adore you. I love you. You matter more than you can fathom. And you’re Mine -always and forever.
Thanks, sweet one. Carry on being you by being with Me.
Geez. He writes really good letters, doesn’t He?!
So, why am I telling you all this? Because I’m wondering if maybe He’s writing a similar love letter to you, asking you to let Him into your “four walls” for a bit.
With Lent starting on Wednesday, I’m asking you to join me in committing these 40 days to honest-to-goodness o-BE-dience to His voice and will.
After all, isn’t that the point of the season?!?
To be, rather than do. To pray, rather than produce and plan. To listen, rather than think/talk so much. To let it “be what it is supposed to be”, rather than expect so much or try so hard to change it. To let “it” change us.
So what is this going to look like? I’m not sure; it’s going to look different for each of us. We’ll just have to let each other know how it all shakes out in 40-some days. All I know for now is that I’ve got my own four walls to focus on: a guest room to clean out (long story…), a body to care for, some great people to love on (including YOU!), and an amazing God to hang out with all the while.
Not too shabby of a season centered on living in o-BE-dience, right?
My yoga teacher ends every class instructing us to take a deep inhale, and then exhale everything out that won’t serve us. I’m taking that seriously this Lent. I’m breathing in the good stuff He has for me, and letting the rest go. Well, that and being a little more quiet, too! 😉
Love you and miss you girls so, so much. Smoochies all around!
Peace, love and JESUS-LEVEL JOY!
PS: (If you are looking for something different and meaningful – and QUIET – to try this Lent, join me in participating in this fantastic idea on praying for others! http://catholickatie.com/writing/my-favorite-thing-to-do-for-lent.html )
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